Andover Man Grateful For Unwavering Support From Spouse
What are you thankful for?
My wife. Having a challenging childhood with my mom dying when I was 5 and then being abandoned by my father at age 9 has left me with many issues mostly with the inability to feel like I'm good enough to be loved and constantly pushing anyone away that starts getting close. So i met my wife when i was 33 and she was 22, that was 15 years ago. She has giving me two beautiful children and the opportunity to live a very blessed life. She has earned a masters in nursing and is a published author of 7 books i believe. And the fact that she has done that all while dealing with me is amazing. See i have some serious mental health issues and drug dependency problems as well, not only that i have not been willing to address the underlying trauma that is at the root of it all. What you just read is alone enough for a person to wash their hands of someone that isn't willing to help themselves, seeing how my behaviors impact the whole family. From my constant up and downs to my impulsive acts i have caused more hardship on us than i could ever tell you about, i would of left myself for these things if I'm being honest. But not once have she ever suggested that was something she wanted to do, she only told me she wanted to see me get better so i could live the life I deserved, and even with my refusal to put in the work she has continually been supportive waiting for when i was finally ready to do the things i needed to better myself. Now at 47 i want to do everything i can to be the best i can be for her. I realized the love i was so desperately searching for has been right there in front of me this whole time. I don't deserve this woman i really don't, but i am so grateful for her. Her strength is amazing and i could not want a better example for my daughter or my son. She has taught them that a relationship isn't always going to be perfect but when you care for a person you work through things and you forgive. I wouldn't be alive today without my wife and i could never express to her how grateful i am. I will probably always push her away because i know she deserves so much more than i give her but I'll always know she'll be there in the morning beside me, helping me fight any demon that dealing with that day. I hope i figure things out so she can have a life she deserves.
